The very start of my trip was a HUGE NSV (non-scale victory). I was boarding the plane feeling an insane amount of nervousness at the small size of the seats. The last time I rode on a plane I was 75lbs heavier and barely able to get the seat belt done up! Once I got into my seat I wanted to hug buddy sitting next to me and explain to him how freaking fantastic I was feeling that I had all kinds of room in my seat, could cross my legs and had a bunch of slack on my seat belt!
So with that hurdle over then came the task of airport eating and eating while on holidays in general. Let me tell you it was not easy! First off I packed little baggies of protein powder that I had planned to mix up at my Nan's for breakfast and even that morning while I was waiting for my plane in Toronto. Well I never really thought the whole mixing a baggie of protein powder into a bottle of water thing through. Needless to say I never had my protein shake at the airport. I looked like a bit of weirdo trying to sprinkle white powder into a bottle of water so I gave up and threw it out. For anyone who is from Newfoundland or has visited it, will understand this when I say there are just some things you HAVE to eat when you visit the province! I wont even sugar coat this (literally) when I tell you about the treats I tried! Ok, so first of all I had a couple of Five Star bars when I was there. Delish! I know I can make them myself and I usually do at Christmas time, but there's just something about it being made in the province of Newfoundland that just makes them taste better. The second treat I HAD to have was my favorite kind of crunchy Cheetos, the nacho flavor, which you can not get in Alberta. With the Cheetos though I had one small snack size bag and I made it last me 4 days, so I just tried a few each day and I was very much satisfied with just a little taste. This is due to my much smaller stomach and also the guilt I was feeling just buying them because this type of junk food is just something I DO NOT buy anymore. I quickly reminded myself of how far I've come, the fact I was on holidays and also the fact that I was only going to allow myself so many at a time. A little treat never killed anyone and if I can't treat myself in this life every so often, well then what the hell am I doing?
My next task that I knew I wanted to do was walk everyday while I was there. So every morning rain, rain, more rain and sunshine I walked. I really looked forward to it each day. For anyone who has ever been to Newfoundland, you know what I'm talking about when I say its absolutely beautiful and there is a sense of peace there that I've never found in Alberta. Its a different pace of life there and you can see the calmness and friendliness in the people you meet walking up the road. This flat lander's thighs, shins and calves though were pretty much on fire for the week, not used to all the hills and Newfie jigs I did Saturday night. With all of that being said, I can officially confirm I lost 2lbs as of this morning and I have been back 1 day!! This is the very first and ONLY time I have ever gone on a vacation and not gained weight, but actually lost weight!! I weighed myself every single day of my vacation and I had stayed the same until this morning. This puts me close to pushing that 80lbs mark and it's so surreal to me! This month has been an exciting one for me with many new exciting things going on in my life, my vacation and some successful weeks of weight loss.
The title of this blog post really spoke to me and many of you might recognize it as the new Sara Bareilles song Brave. The lyrics in this song really touched me and I love the message that it sends. It talks about being judged by others & hiding away from the real world. It talks about letting the light in and seeing you for you. Opening up and being brave. Stand up for yourself and what you want and believe in. This month my weight loss finally caught up to me emotionally. As much as I have been riding a high in the 4 months since my surgery obviously not regretting a second of it, its hard to come to terms with the fact that I'm Chantelle but I'm not really Chantelle anymore. I'm a new me and I'm continually changing. My outlook on life has completely been thrown for a loop. It's all wonderful don't get me wrong, just takes some getting used to standing out for being confident and beautiful rather than standing out because you were the chubby girl. I love the new me and I will continue to do so!Hugs & Glitter,
Chanty
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