There was so much more to it than flirty hip moves. Stand on the chair she says, squat she says, booty pop she says, lay on the chair and swing your legs up she says. Whattttttt!? I did the moves and in the pictures you will see my terrified face when I am squatting on the chair. Going through my mind is "this chair is going to snap" I'm going to be the fatty that snaps the chair, god dammit I never signed up for this!! Ha ha it's hilarious now that I think of it, now that I came away from it without breaking the chair. 
It was something so new for me, something totally out of my comfort zone, but I had so much fun doing it. I think back to last year at this time and I would have never been able to do something like that. The chair would have for sure broke. Actually it wouldn't have because I would have made up some type of an excuse not to go. It's amazing what loosing weight does to a person's self confidence, social life, relationships and friendships. When you live in that overweight bubble you honestly do not know what you missing. Missing out on love, I never knew before, now I couldn't live without Nick. Missing out on fun activities, missing out on being able to sign up for everything with no fear. I recently signed up to play on a baseball team this summer. That is totally new for me. All I'm asking is please baby Jesus let me still have my pearly whites by the time the season is over. I'm sure I'll come away with a few bruises but it wont be from my weight, it'll be from the fact that I am a very uncoordinated sports person. I'm a klutz. I'm ok with that though, I hope everyone else on the team is. :)
I also have a lot less fat covering my bones and you know I miss that cushion a little. I get really uncomfortable sitting on wooden chairs for too long. Even sitting on a couch my tail bone starts to hurt, I never really had a sore tail bone before. I also get really uncomfortable sleeping on my side because my knee bones crush together and it hurts! I know you skinny people are probably saying, my knee bones have always touched and I'm fine. That's all well and good when you have lived with that your whole life. I always had cushion, now I do not! Felt my ass bone for the first time last month. Never even knew I had an ass bone. I thought it was just all ass cheek. Nope! Collar bones, shoulder bones, neck bones, I've got all those to! These new discoveries have been amazing but an adjustment. It wasn't until the other day I was in a furniture store and I walked by a mirror and I took a second look and then looked at Nick and said "holy shit I've lost a lot of weight hey"?! He looks at me like I'm crazy and says of course you have!! Some days its a total mind warp. I can't get it into my head that I have changed. I know I have, I see it in the mirror most days, I see it in the clothes that I buy even the brands that I buy. Brands I would have never fit into before because they were "skinny girl clothes", but I fit into them now!
It's amazing what you can do when you make that change. When you put your mind to it! 110lbs and I don't regret one single one! Find it in yourself to try something different. Summer's coming, the winter blues are over! Get out there even if it's to jump a couple puddles!! :)Hugs & Glitter,
Chanty
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