60 is so Damn Sweet!

Have you ever been that chubby person who sat at a Boston Pizza booth and your stomach touched the table?? I have. About 3 months ago I was that girl. I sat with my friend out for supper and my stomach touched the table. And the whole time I was there I was unbelievably uncomfortable because I was so ashamed. Holy hell what had I done to myself? How did I get here? 3 days ago I went back to Boston Pizza for the first time and as luck would have it I sat my ass down in that same gosh darn booth, I took a deep breath and then I looked down. Then I looked at my friend Chels and smiled and shared with her my non scale victory. Then I waved my hand between my stomach and the table. If I had a ruler I think I would have measured the damn distance between that table and my stomach this time! It was glorious. It felt amazing. I’m not that girl anymore. I am free to sit wherever the hell I want and you better believe I’m going to! After that was over I was plagued with the task of finding something healthy on the menu. Boston Pizza does pretty well with this as they have a few healthier alternatives on their menu and they have graciously added the calories and fat content of the dish. Once I chose the steak and veggies option the real fun began. It was funny to me because I’m used the quantity of food I eat now and just how little I can actually eat. My friend on the other hand was not quite used to it, therefore she forced me to keep my fork up and pretend I was eating so she didn’t look like a “pig” she said. Then she mentioned that I should maybe refrain from going on a dinner first date as I would have to explain this whole situation to my potential date whom it might be a lot to take it on a first meeting. I assured her I’d stick to coffee dates for the first little while. It was all so funny to me as I have gotten so used to it, but it was very different eating out at a restaurant compared to eating at home or at a family or friends house. After I stopped laughing I began to think oh my what will the waitress think when my plate is pretty much untouched? I simply asked for a to-go container though and it all worked out good.

Our next stop was the movie theater. Now I don’t know who’s with me on this but Lloyd has the best popcorn ever! I have never tasted better theater popcorn anywhere so of course I was like I have to have some. Now I struggled with this decision because I have not had treats such as theater popcorn since I started this journey. I made the decision and knew I wouldn’t eat a lot of it and was just going to get a kid’s size and then give the rest away. I felt an immense amount of guilt waiting for the movie with a bag of popcorn in my hand. I thought oh my goodness, what if someone see’s me and thinks she shouldn’t be eating that? What if I don’t make my 60lbs this week because of this popcorn?  I know it is all ridiculous and I was having a slight panic attack about eating a handful of popcorn. I thought back to the reason I got this surgery and that is because I never want to be on another diet again. I am NOT on a diet. I live a healthy lifestyle, make healthy, positive choices and live actively. I watch my portion sizes and track what I eat. The number one reason I got this surgery is so I can live a NORMAL life. Be just like everyone else. Don’t miss out on the good parts of life, which sometimes include movie theater popcorn. Let me rephrase that, Lloydminster movie theater popcorn. So I treated myself, I survived, I don’t think anyone made any judgments towards me about it, besides Chels thinking I’m more nuts than usual for freaking out over holding popcorn.

So today is my 12^th week since surgery. It’s been a really fun 12 weeks though. Experiencing new things, and learning so much about healthy eating and portion sizes. I am once again blown away by other peoples support, their positive comments regarding me and my blog. It is completely humbling to be in the company of such great people all of the time. I am now down 60.5lbs and couldn't be happier. I officially reached that number yesterday morning and I got on the scale 3 times after to make sure I was seeing that new number correctly. My jaw dropped and then I did a little dance! 60 is legit, so damn sweet! I have added a few comparison photo's once again celebrating my almost 3 months since surgery.

 

I hope everyone is having a fab summer and enjoys this latest post! Until next time...

 

Hugs & Glitter,

 

Chanty