So today I had a huge moment where I didn't let my thoughts get the best of me. I broke through it all and went to the gym. Now this may seem like an easy step for a lot of you but when the last time you went to the gym you felt totally disgusting and completely out of place, this was a huge step. I have been completely terrified of going back there. I have been walking outside and I know I have been using it as a crutch. I really have wanted to start at the gym for a couple of weeks now but I just couldn't get there. The last time I went to the gym I was 70lbs heavier. I could barely walk up one flight of stairs without feeling like I was ready to pass out from exhaustion and lack of air. I bought a month membership, went the one time, felt so ashamed of myself that I never went back. That was until today! Can't tell you how good it felt to walk up all those stairs to the track and be NOT out of breathe. I thought holy shit, 70lbs really does make a huge difference! I have hit a bit of a stall this last week and so that was a nice little reality check that what I've lost so far is HUGE! I still knew it was time to up my work-outs and really kick this shit into high gear! I've started setting goals for myself and I will not stop until they are met. So today I worked past that insane fear of going back to that gym and being stared at because I was fat, because I felt like I didn't belong there with the fit people. But today I went there knowing I looked great (I had a new outfit by the way) and knowing I could do this.
I started the 5K trainer app on my iPhone and today I did day 2. It is an amazing app and I actually completed all of the running intervals without a problem and felt like I could have kept running. That was a huge moment for me up there knowing I could keep going. The last time I was there I didn't even want to be walking leisurely. I did some time on the stepper, did some free weights and some weight machines for some arm toning. I did some sit-ups and finally stretched it all out. I feel great right now after that work-out and I know the first step is the hardest, but once you do it you feel so damn great it makes you wonder why you stopped in the first place! This long weekend is going to be all about me getting back at it at the gym and setting up a routine for myself so that when I have to go back to work on Tuesday I'll be ready for my after work work-outs.
I'm so glad I found this cute little e-card before I went so I didn't make a fool of myself on the work-out mats!
For those of you that are looking for a great long weekend healthy snack food, I found these Special K cracker chips that I love! They taste like kettle corn and who in the hell doesn't love kettle corn!? Also hope you can read french because that's the side I've shown in the picture! :)
I hope everyone has a great long weekend! I know I started mine right!
Hugs & Glitter,
Chanty
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